to publicly journal when you're feeling very emotional & moody? Oh well, here I go. I've been feeling a little down from some of the reactions from people upon finding out the sex of our new baby. Not from all of you guys, who support me so much & make me feel so good all the time. Thanks by the way for being such good friends...even the few of you that I've never met in person. You guys are the best. Anyway, there were months when I cried & felt so sad that this little baby wasn't coming sooner. We loved her & wanted her so very badly, even before we knew she'd be a girl. I feel so strongly that we are placed in certain families & even in the order we are by our Heavenly Father...for so many reasons that maybe we'll one day be able to understand. I guess I've been offended. On a personal level & on a spiritual one as well. Why can't I just let it go? There are many times in my life when I have to forget everything beyond my family. My family meaning: Me, Dylan & our kids. This is one of those times. Asking Heavenly Father to help me be more humble. Thanking Him for all of my blessings. Thanking Him for 2 girls in a row. Thanking Him for the opportunity to be a parent which helps me grow closer to Him & helps me to understand the plan of salvation even more.
Maybe laying a few of my feelings out there will help me to feel better. I do get mad at myself that I let things bother me so....but I'm a sensitive one. There's no denying that.