Friday, April 04, 2008

Love From Canada


I went out to get the mail yesterday & saw a package sitting on my doorstep. The box seemed too big to be the fat quarters I just ordered. In fact it wasn't my fabric, but a package full of goodies from my friend Alexandra. Now Alexandra didn't know....or maybe she did...maybe she could sense it...that I've had a really tough winter & the past month or so has been really hard. I thought I was feeling better & then this week I struggled again with feeling isolated and lonely & fighting off feelings of depression. Wednesday was a particularly hard day. Then on Thursday, I find a wonderful surprise on my doorstep from a dear friend that I met through blogging. A woman who I've never met in real life, whose voice I've never heard. I've never even seen a photo of her. What color hair do you have, Alexandra? :) Anyway, that she cared enough to gather together items just for me has made me feel so very special at a time when I really need to feel special. Thank you so very much Alexandra.

It reminds me of a time this winter when I was struggling with my motherhood duties & really having a downright horrible day of screaming my head off & feeling like a lunatic when I found a package on my doorstep from Chanel. It was a lovely book called Mothering With Spiritual Power & it was exactly what I needed.

I find myself most days wishing that I could assemble a neighborhood to live it that would have all my favorite people living there. All my sisters & my good friends that are miles away. All my friends that I'd love to go on walks with or hang out with them on their couch every day. I'll keep dreaming.

I'm so thankful for my internet buddies. I hate to imagine how much more isolated & alone I'd feel without all of you. Thank you so much for being a part of my life.

24 comments:

chanel said...

oh my gosh how great is that! Im sorry you were feelin blue- I wish you would call me when you feel like that!!!! you can never tell from your blog!!!!

I so wish we lived in your imaginary neighborhood too!!! That sounds like the best!!!!

I LOVE YOU! You are WONDERFUL.

And happy day for angels!!!

chanel said...

oh and if you don't know- Snuggle Puppy ROCKS!!! My girls LOVE IT!!!

Jessica said...

oh my gosh! i am feeling the same way recently, just havent wanted to talk about it! its so great to know im not alone with all the struggles of motherhood. when you were talking about yelling your head off i had to smile because thats all i feel like i do recently! thanks for this post, i know i am not alone. how sweet of your online friend. that is so thoughtful, and what a perfect time for you! enjoy all of your goodies!

Candace said...

i know, Chanel. When we did live down the street from each other I was still working....so we didn't get the best of it. :(

Keri said...

I'm with Chanel...I would have never known you've had a rough winter. Sorry to hear that. Isn't it amazing how others are the angels in our lives? What a thoughtful girl Alexandra must be! Hope today is brighter. (And by the way, all of us moms have bad days where we feel like we should be the ones in time out...and we'd gladly take it!)

andrad said...

Hi Candace! Such a sweet post - you are so welcome - I would love to send you a package every week!
Being a stay-at-home-Mom can be very isolating and frustrating - and you know I've been there! It's so good to share your feelings and to forgive yourself when your days are difficult.
As for your imaginary neighbourhood - sign me up - it sounds fabulous!
A.

andrad said...

Oh... I forgot...
my hair is sort of a chestnut colour but I play around with highlights so it can get quite blonde at times!
I guess I should post a photo some time :)
A.

andrea said...

We really REALLY need to do something today then! I am the lucky one who lives by you, I need to cheer you up! I tried calling earlier, call me if you see this!

andrea said...

That package is so sweet too, by the way!

Melissa Everett said...

Dont you love getting things in the mail! Good job Andrea! I am sorry you feel lonley and isolated. It is hard to be a stay at home mom, a lot of people dont know that. I wish I could hug you right now! ... And I would love to live in your pretend neighborhood!

the fellers said...

that is so special, amazing how the Lord works in mysterious ways, and knows just when to prompt someone to do something....cool cool post! Man, i miss Canada, look at those nummy treats!

wrightfamily said...

What a cute little package! That is so neat that you haven't even met her, but have a great connection. I think the sunshine would help if it would come out more. I hope your feeling better soon.

sweetjessie said...

Lovely and thoughtful gifts. Who doesn't love some good mail? I hope you're feeling better.

Erin L said...

Winters are hard on mommys. Last winter, when Ana was just a baby, was so, so hard on me, too. I think I've stayed out of it this year because I've been a little busier. I alos think its blogging. Isn't great that we can connect even though we're miles away. Call me, girl!!

amanda said...

girl i wish that you were around also. it does get hard with winter but soon it will be done and you can hang outside. you are a friend i truely miss! i love canadian candy. hey alexandra have you had a Mr. Big- those are yummy!

andrad said...

Hi Amanda! Yes, I have had 'Mr. Big' - not in a little while though. If you like Mr. Big you'd probably like 'Oh Henry' too!
It's funny - we went to the U.S. before Easter and now I'm hooked on Twix and Butterfinger!
A.

Candace said...

oh butterfinger.....i have a weakness for butterfinger.

Michelle said...

I've always admired you for leaving the security of family and friends back home to support Dylan in his school and work. You're such a good wife and mother. Hope Sring brings lots of sunshine your way.

Patti said...

Sending happy thoughts your way, Candace. I remember making big geographical moves and having little kids. It is hard.

Enjoy that package . . . and I love Canadian candy, too.

Amber said...

Candace! That is such a sweet friend. I feel bad that I didn't even realize this. I think you are so strong and such a fun mom & to live away from family makes me admire you even more. I don't know if I would survive. Miss you & can't wait for warmer weather for you guys.

Leymaster Family said...

I hear yeah Candace! There have been so many times I have felt the same way. Is spring ever coming?

Rolyndia said...

I understand those winter blues. I feel like I am in such a slump and could really use some sunshine and warmer weather. I could use a really good walk also. Hope you are feeling better and enjoying your care package.

jessi said...

I keep thinking I'm getting over the winter blues too - and then it snows again and stays cold and I realize it just hasn't happened yet.

And this is just why i started blogging - after six months in a new place and not much luck at making new friends, I needed an outlet. It has been wonderful - such a great place for me to escape the blues. And I'm with you - let's assemble a neighborhood with all of our favorites. Wouldn't it be great!

Cherine said...

Candace thanks for sharing! I totally understand. Today it just snowed here AGAIN and i am thinking...ya nice Spring! It makes for a very long Winter plus I can't go outside much because of Abigail. So I just keep thinking hang in there. Packages are great especially because it is hard to not live near fam.It is nice to feel the love!!! You are a trooper and I always thought so (from observing you in Idaho). I admire you a lot!!

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