Friday, April 04, 2008
Love From Canada
I went out to get the mail yesterday & saw a package sitting on my doorstep. The box seemed too big to be the fat quarters I just ordered. In fact it wasn't my fabric, but a package full of goodies from my friend Alexandra. Now Alexandra didn't know....or maybe she did...maybe she could sense it...that I've had a really tough winter & the past month or so has been really hard. I thought I was feeling better & then this week I struggled again with feeling isolated and lonely & fighting off feelings of depression. Wednesday was a particularly hard day. Then on Thursday, I find a wonderful surprise on my doorstep from a dear friend that I met through blogging. A woman who I've never met in real life, whose voice I've never heard. I've never even seen a photo of her. What color hair do you have, Alexandra? :) Anyway, that she cared enough to gather together items just for me has made me feel so very special at a time when I really need to feel special. Thank you so very much Alexandra.
It reminds me of a time this winter when I was struggling with my motherhood duties & really having a downright horrible day of screaming my head off & feeling like a lunatic when I found a package on my doorstep from Chanel. It was a lovely book called Mothering With Spiritual Power & it was exactly what I needed.
I find myself most days wishing that I could assemble a neighborhood to live it that would have all my favorite people living there. All my sisters & my good friends that are miles away. All my friends that I'd love to go on walks with or hang out with them on their couch every day. I'll keep dreaming.
I'm so thankful for my internet buddies. I hate to imagine how much more isolated & alone I'd feel without all of you. Thank you so much for being a part of my life.