Friday, December 05, 2008

Heartbreak

I hate to have to do this, but I must inform you that our family will not be expecting another baby early next summer. At my 14 week checkup earlier this week, the doctor was unable to find the baby's heartbeat. I knew right then what was happening, but she did a few ultrasounds & without sharing all the details...we've lost the baby.

This has been really hard to deal with. We are all very sad. Dyl & I especially & that poor little 4 year old too. I wish it would have happened earlier. I wish that my family hadn't had to go through the hardest part....those 2 months of constant sickness where I am unable to take care of them fully. We thought we were in the clear. We were proud of what we had conquered & that little bean we'd seen earlier on the ultrasound screen with a beating heart had already become a part of us.

We are sad. Our hearts are broken. Time will pass & life will go on & we will be okay. We are okay. We have a lot of love in this little house of ours. We will be okay.

For now I am allowing myself to be sad. Thank you for your calls, but if I don't answer my phone, please understand that I don't want to talk about it right now.

36 comments:

misschris said...

Candace, I am so very sorry. I know from firsthand experience how heartbreaking that news is, and my prayers go out to you all. Take care.

Artsy Momma said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. I have been there myself and you never forget the pain but it gets easier everyday.

(((love and hugs)))

ash said...

I'm so sorry.

Keri said...

My thoughts are with you. I, too, have been there, but I know from experience that hearing about others doesn't make it any easier. I wish I could come hug you.

the fellers said...

I am so very sorry, our hearts go out to you and your beautiful family. You are in our prayers and I wish you all the best this holiday season!

Jessica said...

im so sorry candace.

Lola....L..O..L..A....lo--oh--luh! said...

I am so sorry. Big Hugs, and prayers!

Melissa Everett said...

Candace... I am so sorry! I was going to call you last night. But I didnt know what to say. I know that no matter what anyone says... it doesnt make it any better. I have always thought that I wouldnt wish something like this on my worst enemy! I love you! Im Sorry this happend! Love you! Miss you!!

sherri said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

M3isMe said...

Our heartfelt condolences to you and your family.

chanel said...

love you sweet girl, hang in there. we've been praying for you nonstop. i love you and your family so very much, im sorry you have to go through this. im here when you're ready, and allowing yourself to grieve for this little one is exactly what you should be doing, just hang in there.
MUCH MUCH LOVE!

Amber said...

I love you!

Selina said...

I'm so very sorry.

Holly said...

I am so so sorry. Things like this just don't seem fair at all.

Erin L said...

I'm so sorry. I know that its hard even when you tell yourself that everything will work out. Wish you lots of happiness this holiday.

giddygoat said...

My sympathy to you and your sweet family.

Misty said...

Let us know if you need anything. But without even asking, we're bringing dinner on Sunday night. No protests; we're coming.

rose said...

i'm sorry.

Maggie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. All people grieve in different way, do what's in your heart.

Kimberly said...

Mom told me yesterday.
Im so sorry Candace!

I love you!!

Cherine said...

Candace I hope you are feeling the love because that is all we have for you from Utah. Thank goodness for a Savior to restore our broken hearts. He was broken too for moments like this. He is a man of sorrows acquainted with grief. He is able to make it better because he loves you and your sweet family!

Leslie said...

i'm so sorry, candace. it's a horrible thing to go through, my thoughts are with you and your family.

Heather said...

I love you! It may seem like it can't get better, but happier days are ahead.

andrea said...

You know I am sorry, and I am here if you need anything. I hope dinner was good, I wanted to do something more fancy for you! Andin kept talking about Sadie after you guys left, right before bed he asked me if they were going to play again tomorrow! You should just drop them off again, if you aren't feeling well. We love you and are praying for you!

Jessie said...

oh Candace, I am so sorry.

scottfamily5 said...

I am so sorry for you and your family. You are in my thoughts.
Helen xxxxx

Andy and Shay said...

Please let us know if you ever need helo with the kids just to have a break, we are here and thinking of you.

lera said...

I am so very sorry to hear this. I know that it is a true heartbreak. I suffered a loss and had a very serious scare with my youngest. My prayers are with you and your family.

The Stitching Surgeon said...

my heart is breaking for you. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your sweet little family.

Patti said...

Thinking about you guys, Candace.

amanda said...

candace, my heart goes out to you. best of luck with this hardship. but as always you are a very strong woman, remember your NEVER alone!!

K.C. and Ipuna said...

I'm so sorry. I've been there myself.

Grace =) said...

My family experienced this earlier this year with my sister and her husband's miscarriage. My heart and sympathies goes out to you and your family. God bless~

Amber said...

Candice, I am so sorry. I just saw this post today. I thought I was following you on Reader, but I just realized today you don't have a feed. Anyways, I am so so incredibly sorry. If you want, or whenever you feel up to it, I have some links on my blog that were very helpful for me when I was ready.

Take care, and I will be praying for you.

wrightfamily said...

I just wanted you to know that I was thinking about you. I just read your post and my thoughts will be with you through this difficult time. Much Love!

Amber said...

Oh geez, NOW they show up. Anyways, I've got it covered now, and I will be updated with your posts from now on. :)

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