Friday, November 20, 2009
I Just Want To Be Awesome
Sorry for my absence around this space lately. We've had a busy, busy week around here. Hopefully my posting will get a bit more interesting as I get ready to go full force with my Christmas crafting.
On an unrelated note, I've been doing some thinking lately....
I am a very self conscious person. I have lived my entire life worrying about what others might be thinking about me. Worrying that they are judging me based on this or that. Well, lately I just don't care anymore. I am happy with myself & the way I choose to live my life. I present myself in a way that reflects the principles & standards that are so important to me. If somebody else is judging me...that's their problem.
I'm wondering, did this come about because of my age? Has turning 30 made me feel like it's time to let all the worry go? Or is it being back in my home town? Does Las Vegas give me a confidence that I've never had before?
I think the real answer is just that I'm progressing for now. My insecurities could all resurface at any moment & I could very well go through another period of being too critical of myself & of others for perhaps thinking that I don't dress very cute or that maybe I should take better care of my body. Because I know they think that! I'm a mind reader after all.
Who knows. For now I'll just enjoy this moment for feeling good in my skin & proud of the person that I am inside & out. I hope that you all can take some time this weekend to think about all the things that make you great & all that you do to make the lives of your family & friends so wonderful. It's good to remember how loved we are....just the way we are.