Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Thoughts on Feeling Pretty
This right here is the reason why I've been growing my hair out. This wavy, curly hair right here. :) I still want it to be quite a bit longer, but I am loving where it's getting.
I'm not really into fashion. I've never wanted to get wrapped up in spending money on myself. Shopping with kids is not fun. Plus I just don't think about it because my mind is already filled to the max with sewing ideas. Lately I have been enjoying curling my hair, wearing earrings, or buying myself a new top every now & then. I'm worth it. It makes me feel happy, and I'm not going overboard.
I wonder if I'm like most women. Is it the norm to more easily be able to list off the things you don't like about yourself rather than the things that you love about yourself? Why is it so easy to focus on the bad, or the perceived bad?
I have been thinking about feeling pretty lately. I think it came about because Sadie has started randomly telling me that I'm pretty. She'll say, "Mom, you are SO pretty." and she'll give me the sweetest hug. Maybe she's learned this from Dylan. He tells me that I am beautiful constantly. He tells me in the morning, when he calls me on the phone mid day, when he gets home at night, and before we go to bed. He tells me when I look like a mess & he tells me when I'm dressed up for a date. And he says it with such surprise in his voice. Like he's looking at me for the first time & he can't believe it. It's really sweet & I often times don't really believe him. I think he's saying it just to make me feel good. So I'll respond, "That's nice of you to say."
I'm realizing lately & it's hitting me over the head like 'how could I have been so dense for so long?'...that the surprise in his voice when he tells me that I'm pretty is not at all like the surprise of seeing me for the first time. It's the surprise of seeing me for the millionth time. He looks at me & he sees me inside & out....and he loves what he sees because he loves me. Me.....everything that makes up me.
I really loved the talk given by Thomas S. Monson, the president of my church, at the Relief Society session of conference earlier this month. He said: "Charity...is accepting people as they truly are. It is looking beyond physical appearances to attributes that will not dim through time. It is resisting the impulse to categorize others."
I feel most pretty when I am at home with the people that I love & that love me the most. I want to try to always see myself the way they see me & not through my own critical eyes. I want to see myself the way my creator sees me. “The Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7)
Are you with me? Let's remember the things that make us truly beautiful & share our hearts & our talents & our goodness with the world. We are all pretty. It's true. :)