Tuesday, May 17, 2011
So last week I ran into an acquaintance & her mother & we had a super quick chit chat & then I turned around & was on my way. Just a few steps away I could hear them talking about me quite literally right behind my back.
"Is she pregnant????" The daughter whispered to her mother.
"Hmmm. I'm not sure. She's chubby!" The mother responded.
And of course because I was only about six feet away, I could hear it all.
I thought to myself, "What idiots!" I know. Rude of me. But that's what came to my mind & I continued on with what I was doing & with the rest of my day. But darn it, when I went to lay down at bed that night, I couldn't help it & I just started crying. It crushed me. I am so insecure about my body this pregnancy. Yes, this is by far my chubbiest pregnancy & I'm concerned about just how more chubby I'll be by the end of it. I don't want people to think I'm gross.
But come on! This is definitely the shape of a pregnant woman, right? Not an over eater. I am growing a baby! A baby that I wanted for so long. Pregnancy is beautiful. I should not care what anybody else has to say about it. Especially women that don't even have the decency to wait until I'm out of ear shot to talk about their negative opinion of my body shape.
This is a short time in my life. I am going to enjoy the heck out of it. Chubbiness & all!
Also, I've got the emotions right now. Big time.
Also, I am not posting this to get you all to tell me that I look great. I just want to remember. I will always tell pregnant women how awesome they look. Bringing a baby into this world is an amazing sacrifice. It's a beautiful act. We should never make the pregnant ladies feel horrible.