I figured that I'd better pop in here & let you know that I'm still around. People have started to wonder if my absence means that I've gone to the hospital & delivered this baby. Not so. Just thought I'd let you know.
A man in the shampoo aisle at Target yesterday asked me, "Are you ready to pop?!" When I replied that I had a week or so left, he then asked, "Are you feeling alright?". I thought that was nice that he was concerned about me. :)
There's a stain on my shirt in that photo above...and I really don't care. I don't have much energy left to care about too much these days.
My body aches. Specifically my sides & my hips & my pelvic bones. I have never felt this weighed down by pregnancy before. But then, I've never dilated prior to 40 weeks & I've never had a baby drop in the way this one has. By the end of the day it's just too uncomfortable to walk or even sit. I have to lay down. I feel like an old lady. And I've continued to feel older & older as this pregnancy gets further along. I'm feeling about 85 years old these days. Not really, but then again, yeah really.....in some ways. My bones are rickety, I have no energy & I can get pretty dang cranky at times.
Dylan & I admit to each other last night that we are both feeling nervous about the baby's arrival. I have been feeling nervous for quite some time because being cut open again is reason enough to feel anxious, right? But it's also because it's been quite a few years since we've last done this. I am confident though that everything will go smoothly & all worries will melt away as soon as we have that soft, warm baby in our arms.
For now I don't want to forget how great Dylan has been. He's stepped up to help me where I'm falling short with the housework. Also, he tells me everyday how beautiful I am &
9 more days until my scheduled c-section...unless I start into labor before then.
So I really don't have that much longer to tough it out... & then there's a whole new set of aches & pains to get through as I recover from surgery while caring for a newborn. And it's all so wonderful! :)