Thursday, October 20, 2011
Our New Normal
We're slowly starting to settle into a routine around here. I admit that I thought I'd be able to pick back up multitasking all my previous duties of mothering + housework + shop work with ease, but I guess I've completely forgotten how time consuming a little baby can be. I am happy these days when I can get a load of laundry done & a meal on the table. I keep reminding myself that things will quickly change. Before I know it, this baby will turn into a little boy & then a big boy. These moments are to be enjoyed. Everything will slowly fall back into place. I don't need to stress myself out about what I'm not getting done. I just need to do the best that I can.
It's also been overwhelming to make sure that I am giving my 3 littles + my husband all that they need. Life is a bit more messy & less organized than usual, but I am rolling with it & enjoying this time. I'm trying to keep any negativity out & pat myself on the back for every little accomplishment, like getting showered & dressed for the day.
Finn had a well check & we discovered that once again his weight gain was not where we'd like it to be. I just don't produce enough milk for my babies to get fat! So we are increasing the amount of formula that we supplement. Breastfeeding is such a huge sacrifice. I've been working so hard at nursing this baby. So naturally I felt very defeated & sad. I was ready to just give up & switch to the bottle completely. (I can be a bit dramatic at times!) But I'm not throwing in the towel just yet. I am drinking lots of water & taking some supplements & trying to get this boy as much of my milk as possible & then adding just enough formula to help plump him up. Once again, I just have to do the best that I can.
I am so happy with my life right now. There is nothing like:
- a soft, sweet smelling baby making cute little noises in his sleep.
- a 4 year old with big brown eyes that reads me books with her best story time librarian impression while I sit feeding the baby.
- a sweet 7 year old that offers up her $3 tooth fairy money for a new jug of milk when we tell her that the milk she poured but didn't drink was a waste of money.
- a good looking husband that helps with chores & takes a turn getting up at night with the baby without me having to ask.